5 posts tagged “the mountain goats”
I looked at Robbie's AIM that he has logged into his computer at home. It's been idle for 21 days. So he's been with me for three weeks?
It feels like we've already built a groove, a pattern, a life. We lay in bed in each other's arms. We go out to dinner and I look at him and I can't believe that he's mine. He looks so handsome and just goddamn gorgeous in his Alpine Stars leather jacket and hat, and he's all scruffy. And when I see girls staring at him, I don't get jealous, I feel happy. I feel smug. Like, look what I have. He's all mine and he loves me and I love him. And I feel like this is right. I feel like we're perfect and like we will be together forever. I know that I don't usually say stuff like this. I don't usually feel so confident in a relationship. And I specially do not make comments like that after living with someone for three weeks, but let me assure you, I've thought of many many reasons of why he should not be with me, and why we would not work out, and all those seem to have fallen in place or melted away since we've been together.
I can't imagine being without him anymore.
He's great with the dogs and he's hilarious. He makes me laugh and he makes me happy. He cheers me up, and he protects me. He keeps me safe and he is always there when I need him. He can almost read my mind, it's ridiculous. Okay, I'm getting gushy and sappy.
I can imagine myself marrying him, having kids, and growing old with him.
<3 Ro
I wonder why I am listening to "Love Love Love" by the Mountain Goats everytime that I'm updating this blog. Hmm...
I don't know why I'm updating except to say that I was in a funky mood and that I felt like crap. And I wanted to die.
And after talking to Rob for awhile, I realized that I didn't need to die, I just needed to have a panic attack and then relax. Thank you, Robert. *clap hands* and maybe *say yeah*
I don't want to go to work tomorrow because Janelle is off and that leaves me and Amy alone with fucktard and that means that we will make fun of her and want to kill her, and I try not to, but sometimes she makes me want to drive her head through the wall.
ON ANOTHER NOTE - I am not bringing Rob to my parents or to the clinic. So NYAH.
<3 R
got up before dawn
went down to the racetrack.
riding with the windows down
shortly after your first heart attack.
you parked behind the paddock,
cracking asphalt underfoot,
coming up through the cracks
pale green things
pale green things
we watched the horses run their workouts.
you held your stopwatch in your left hand
and a racing form beneath your arm,
casting your gaze way out to no man's land.
sometimes I'll meet you out there
lonely and frightened.
flicking my tongue out at the wet leaves
pale green things
pale green things
my sister called at three a.m.
just last december.
she told me how you'd died at last, at last
and that morning at the race track was one thing I remembered.
I turned it over in my mind
like a living chinese finger trap.
seaweed and indiana sawgrass
pale green things
pale green things
This is currently my favourite song of this week.
On the morning when I woke up without you for the first time
I felt free and I felt lonely and I felt scared
And I began to talk to myself almost immediately
Not being used to being the only person there
The first time I made coffee for just myself, I made too much of it
But I drank it all just cause you hate it when I let things go to waste
And I wandered through the house like a little boy lost in the fall
And an astronaut could've seen the hunger in my eyes from space
And I sang
Oh, What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?
What do I do without you?
On the morning when I woke up without you for the first time
I was cold so I put on a sweater and I turned up the heat
And the walls began to close in and I felt so sad and freightened
I practically ran from the living room and into the street
And the wind began to blow and the trees began to pant
And the world in its cold way started coming alive
And I stood there like a buisness man waiting for the train
And I got ready for the future to arrive
And I sang
Oh, What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?
What do I do without you?
What song or lyrics are stuck in your head at the moment? What album is it from?
Submitted by Lox Ly.
I am currently listening to the song "This Year" by The Mountain Goats. And I realize that the lyrics are very apropos. I just want to make it through this year if it kills me. It's from the album The Sunset Tree. I have really gotten into the Mountain Goats thanks to Rob. It's ridiculous, that crazy boy getting me into so much new stuff. If you check out my Last.Fm you'll see that they are my number 4 all time artist/band. :)
Lyrics:
I broke free on a saturday morning.
I put the pedal to the floor.
headed north on mills avenue,
and listened to the engine roar.
my broken house behind me and good things ahead,
a girl named cathy wants a little of my time.
six cylinders underneath the hood crashing and kicking,
ahhh listen to the engine whine.
I am going to make it through this year if it kills me.
I am going to make it through this year if it kills me.
I played video games in a drunken haze
I was seventeen years young.
hurt my knuckles punching the machines
the taste of scotch rich on my tongue.
and then cathy showed up and we hung out.
trading swigs from the bottle all bitter and clean
locking eyes, holding hands,
twin high maintenance machines.
I am going to make it through this year if it kills me.
I am going to make it through this year if it kills me.
I drove home in the california dusk.
I could feel the alcohol inside of me.
home.
picture the look on my stepfather's face,
ready for the bad things to come.
I downshifted as I pulled into the driveway.
the motor screaming out stuck in second gear.
the scene ends badly as you might imagine,
in a cavalcade of anger and fear.
there will be feasting and dancing in jerusalem next year.
I am going to make it through this year if it kills me.
I am going to make it through this year if it kills me.
