18 posts tagged “songs”

Songs that remind me of the year 2006.

Hopefully all these songs will upload correctly unlike the Dave Matthews one that sounded like he was substituted with Alvin the Chipmunk.

What are your top 5 CDs/albums of 2006? 
Submitted by eliz. s.

IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER:

The new theme that I set up reminds me out of something from The Great Gatsby.  It's so pretty, I want it as a painting.  Maybe that will inspire me to draw something like that soon.  The Depakote seems to be working, I don't have nearly as wild mood swings, but the depression seems to be worse, like the Paxil is not doing its job.  So, I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist the next time I go in there.  I have some weird inner ear infection type thing going on, and I randomly tip over or feel like I'm going to.  And my chest hurts from the asthma and bronchitis.  I have bad headaches.  Basically, I'm falling apart. 

Anybody want to trade bodies for a week?

You know what song always makes me happy?  "Me and Julio Down By The Schoolyard" by Simon & Garfunkel.  I mean seriously, you can't listen to that song and not move your head or tap your foot.  I dare you to be unhappy while listening to it!

Anyway, I skipped work yesterday and today due to the not feeling well.  I have a doctor's note though, so it's okay!  But still... I'm sure that my boss is getting sick of me being gone so often.  I wish he would have hired Desiree back, she knew what she was doing and she REALLY needed the job.  He didn't hire her because she was gone quite a bit, and it's true, but still... I miss her and she did her job well.

I'm thinking of going into hibernation so that nobody talks to me or sees me.

Perhaps I will go back to the mental health hospital.

<3 R

I looked at Robbie's AIM that he has logged into his computer at home.  It's been idle for 21 days.  So he's been with me for three weeks?

It feels like we've already built a groove, a pattern, a life.  We lay in bed in each other's arms.  We go out to dinner and I look at him and I can't believe that he's mine.  He looks so handsome and just goddamn gorgeous in his Alpine Stars leather jacket and hat, and he's all scruffy.  And when I see girls staring at him, I don't get jealous, I feel happy.  I feel smug.  Like, look what I have.  He's all mine and he loves me and I love him.  And I feel like this is right.  I feel like we're perfect and like we will be together forever.  I know that I don't usually say stuff like this.  I don't usually feel so confident in a relationship.  And I specially do not make comments like that after living with someone for three weeks, but let me assure you, I've thought of many many reasons of why he should not be with me, and why we would not work out, and all those seem to have fallen in place or melted away since we've been together.

I can't imagine being without him anymore.

He's great with the dogs and he's hilarious.  He makes me laugh and he makes me happy.  He cheers me up, and he protects me.  He keeps me safe and he is always there when I need him.  He can almost read my mind, it's ridiculous.  Okay, I'm getting gushy and sappy.

I can imagine myself marrying him, having kids, and growing old with him.

<3 Ro

1. Robert
2. My pets, all of them, even the squawky and annoying ones
3. Maky - my brother
4. Good Indie music
5. My iPod to listen to the good Indie music
6. My computer and all the good Indie music on it
7. My job and the understanding boss
8. Understanding family members - they make up for the not so understanding ones
9. The ability for Robert and I to have completely different opinions on things that are very much important, and being able to STOP TALKING about things when we realize that we're going to have a misunderstanding or row about it.  Guns, religion, hunting, etc.
10. The moments right before I fall asleep and I'm in Rob's arms and I look up and see him.
11. Actually being able to fall asleep in Rob's arms, where I couldn't do that with anyone else ever.  And being able to cuddle with him.
12. A good healthy sex life for once in my life.
13. Drugs that seem to be doing the trick.
14. Good health and dental insurance.
15. and TiVo.  WEEEEE!!!!

Here's the song for today:

When does that feeling of not being at home at your mother's home hit you?  It hit me today when I felt like an outsider, big time.  My father wasn't welcoming to me or Rob, which is really unusual for him.  Everyone was ignoring me like I had the plague.  And hardly anyone said more than two sentences to either me or Rob.  No one wants to get to know him, and I know that it's because they feel they have to have an allegiance to Anthony.  But they have to realize that life moves on and this is it.  And that's that, and it's not up to them to make up my mind for me.

Ugh.  so anyway, it was really uncomfortable there today.  Besides that, Anthony has become a source of stress and agitation for me.  He talks to me on the phone and angers me or bothers me, I can't decide exactly which one it is.  But it's really frustrating.  And afterwards I feel like the world's worst person.  No matter how hard I try, I just cannot be friends with him.  I know that I don't HAVE TO BE, but he really doesn't have anyone around here and I wish I coul

d be more welcoming and I wish he would have been more open.  But then again if he had been more open, then we probably wouldn't have broken up... and everything happens for a reason.

Anyway, my song for today.  Here you go:

During my hospital stay (behavioural health center type place), I kept hearing the same song over and over in my mind.  And I wondered to myself if that meant I was crazy.  Like, I could hear it clearly as if someone put headphones over my ears.  However, I didn't get my iPod until the 2nd night there and it ran out of batteries almost right away.  And I didn't even hear that song, but it kept playing over and over in my head.  I wonder what this could mean.  Does it mean that I'm crazy or that I have a tiny radio transmitter in my head?

I played King's Corner with two schizophrenic people.  One of whom REFUSED that she was schizophrenic, but that her boyfriend had drugged her by injected drugs into her brain and that's why she was so fucked up and that he put a listening device in her head so that he could hear EVERYTHING she told her psychiatrists.  I didn't know what to say but to say, Yep yep yep, and she's like "You've heard of it happening? you're kidding me!  Has anyone ever done this to you? Have you ever pissed anyone off?"  And the other schizophrenic guy was just REALLY drugged up, and could barely keep his eyes open.  Poor Brad, he was there for three weeks already and didn't look like he was going anywhere anytime soon.  Also, he spent all day sleeping.  So did I, though.  If I could have, I could have Rob there, I would have spent more time.  And then Lola & Sammich would liven things up too.  I wonder if they can do therapy dogs type stuff there.

I'll have to look into that.

Ever since I started taking my TRILEPTAL I have noticed that my attention span has gotten worse.  Now, give this a thought, I had shitty attention span from the getgo what with my ADHD and other mental issues.  But now I find myself spacing out randomly and just staring at like the floor or my nails or whtaever.  FUCKED UP.  I wonder if that will go away or what.  I have to call on Monday and make an appointment with my psychiatrists for a few weeks and see her then.

Okay, this is long enough.  More later, I'm sure.

The Trip: This is the last Vox entry before the trip up to MSP.  I proimse.  I have a few things yet to do.   I have to pick up my bedroom a bit and clean up the bathroom.  I'm trying not to make myself anxious.  I have to pack as well.  Ugh.  I hate last minute things, like packing and shit, because I always feel like I'm forgetting something.  Oh well, it's only for a few days so I'm sure that I can get by with whatever it is I forget if I do forget something.  I'm very excited and nervous at the same time.  That whole "What if he doesn't like me?" thing, the whole "What if I'm not what he expected?"  and at the same time I know he will and I hope that we have a good time.  I don't feel like driving to MSP all by myself though.  That's going to be annoying.

Catching signals that sound in the dark
Catching signals that sound in the dark
We will take off our clothes
And they'll be placing fingers through the notches in your spine
And then when all is breaking
Everything that you could keep inside
Now your eyes ain't moving now
They just lay there in their climb

Give it up for Two Headed Boy.  The world's most upbeat/depressing song.  I don't know why I was just listening to it.  But I love this song.  It always makes me feel depressed, but I still can't help but listen to it in it's entirity everytime it comes on my iPod.

I will take you and leave you alone. Watching spirals of white softly flow over your eyelids and all you did will wait until the point when you let go.

I bought new underwear that is so cute and fun.  Definitely not anything sexy, but oh well!  I also got two new bras, because I don't have any decent ones.  Suckage.

Okay, now this is totally stupid.  So ta ta for now.  I will update you on the MSP Leg of our trip later on.  :)

<3 Ro

So if you want to say yes, say yes
And if you want to say no, say no

I listen to this song on the way home from work everyday to get myself in a good mood.  To remind myself that I am out of work and that I need to enjoy myself.  And it helps to get rid of the emotions and stresses from the day so that I can be a clear headed and free person at home.  It doesn't always work, but most of the time it does.

I'm okay alone, but you've got something I need.

I think that we should get together.

I've been looking around the world, you've got something for me.

I have some new Flickr pictures, so you should go check them out.  http://flickr.com/photos/pinkrobotrocio/

<3 Ro

P.S. Rob comes to me tomorrow and I'm very nervous.