26 posts tagged “rob”
* We threw pieces of a honeydew melon at a baby alligator in a pond. Rob managed to hit him in the face and he freaked out. Big LOL moment for me.
* There are creepy animals all over teh place. A bit of a worry.
* I saw Jacksonville Beach and the beach at St. Augustine, both very pretty and have been wanting to go swimming. However, I didn't bring a swimsuit and that's okay with me.
* Rob's dad is trying to persuade us to move here so Rob can go to school and I can enjoy the area and work here.
* Rob may be able to get another bike, it's still in the works.
* I saw a baby (Rob says it was full grown, EVEN CUTER!!!) armadillo, CUTE! I only saw his silhouette at first and I thought it was a rat crossing the street (how very NY-ish of me). He was cute.
* Publix is a great supermarket and their chocolate chip cookies are the best ever.
* ENTEMANN'S!!!
* We went to the Ripley's Believe It or Not! museum in St. Augustine, we only had to pay 30% of the cost because Rob had a St. John's cty ID. Sweet.
* Tomorrow = EPCOT ETC!!
* I saw baby (well possibly full grown too) lizards... eew.
* GEORGIA IS THE SCARIEST STATE EVAR I DONT CARE WHAT NO ONE SAYS OKKKKK
* Ali G apparently made a movie, we are watching it. HILARITY.
* I miss you PATRICK AND MAAKY AND LOLAAA AND SAMMICHHHH and ok rigby too
* Spider Man 3 bored me until the end. Meh.
More later.
<3 Ro
I saw this video on neatorama.com - which is a website I visit DAILY - and I could not stop laughing, mostly because the lady was laughing too. Check it out.
http://www.neatorama.com/2007/05/15/funniest-911-call-ever/
I had a lot to write about, at least I did on my way home from my mom's yesterday, but I don't any longer. I'm going to start going to temple, I'm going to start giving my heart back to God, and I'm going to start trying to live my life in a positive light. I would not stop crying all the way from my mom's. It was terrible. Then we almost hit a deer. It sucked.
I miss Anthony a lot. And that's what has been making me cry the most recently. Sometimes, I hate to say this, I feel that I made a mistake. However, I know that for his sake and my own, we were better off separate. I love Rob, I do, but sometimes his negative attitude and the fact that he's not always the nicest person to other people, make me miss Ant's loving and fun attitude. Then I just have to remind myself of all the reasons that we didn't work out. I love you, Ant, always will. :)
Lola seems like she's sick. I hope she's okay. Sammich had bright pink eyes last night and I was worried, but I put some eye drops in and then today they seem better. Thank goodness, after getting fired, I don't need any more issues popping up.
Okay, more later. :)
I heard on the science channel that if you put a diamond on your tongue it will feel cold. So I put my wedding ring in my mouth. It's true, yo. Apparently it draws heat away from your body. Weird.
I've gotta have a friend in Jesus. So I know that when I die he's going to recommend me to the spirit in the sky. It's where I'm gonna go when I'm die.
Let's talk about this, so I'm Jewish. I have decided that Reformed Judaism is my best suited religion. My husband is an atheist and therefore does not believe in anything that I do. Sometimes there are problems, but mostly not. He has no problems with me holding a Passover Seder and has no problems with expecting our kids to observe Shabbat, however they will not be expected to not use electronic items and etc, because we aren't Hasidic Jews. So we are still doing out Shabbat Dinners together as a family and etc. That is, if we have kids.
I am less and less conviced that I will be able to have a child. And it makes me really sad because I wanted it to be by choice, not because physically I couldn't. You know?
Fall out Boy is a guilty pleasure of mine.
On Guitar Hero my favourite song to play is "Jessica" by the Allman Brothers. I'm pretty good at it, but I haven't been able to get to the "hard" stage of that game. Dammit.
I think this is enough blogging for now. I have nothing else to say. I miss Anthony a lot sometimes, but I don't think I miss him romantically, I just miss having him around and all the fun that he was. Ugh.
Robert is in Florida this week and I'm alone. And I hate it. I hate it. I have a lot of errands to run and I refuse to go out there and do them. Nah.
It seems weird that every year around this time, an unusual amount of people from my past seem to pop out of nowhere. Hmm. I got text messages from Joseph, who of course was drunk while he was texting me. He seems to think that I'm "something that should have been done six years ago." I pointed out the fact that he only texts me when he's drunk and that he only talks to me that way. I pointed out how rude and disrespectful it is to talk to me, he called me self righteous and said that I was being rude to HIM. I told him that he didn't care about me, and had just been wanting ass now. It pisses me off because him and I had a wonderful friendship. We were best friends in the year 2000 and I was so in love with him for a long time. He had his opportunity and things didn't work out, so I figure that's that. He's also much older than me, I'm 24 and he is now 33. I don't think we were ever on the same plane, but if we were, we completely missed our chances and thats the end of that. I told him not to contact me anymore and that was both something I needed to say and something very painful to say.
The other person that just randomly popped out was Jed. I had said my final goodbyes to my emotions about him, and I certainly don't feel that way for him anymore. I did when I was in an unsatisfactory relationship, but now I just want his friendship again. He was a great friend and one day he told me that because of his wife, he was going to basically cut me out of his life. We hadn't talked for months and months. Then out of nowhere I get an email from him saying that he wasn't sure where we stood and whether it was okay to talk to me or not. I said of course it is, I would still like to be your friend. I miss him, that's for sure, but it's nowhere near the same thing anymore. And what's so annoying about THAT friendship is that he seems to seek me out the most when him and his wife are having problems. Almost like I'm being the backup girl. Like, hey if things don't work out between me and her, Rocio is always there. Sigh. I doubt thats really the nature of our friendship, but for a long time that's how I felt.
I'm very happy and very satisfied with my relationship with Rob. We get along so well and we like each other. I have never had a boy that I actually want to spend a lot of time with, that I want to cuddle with, and just enjoy his company. We compliment each other very wonderfully. I love him to death. And I can't imagine what life would be like without him. I have honestly never felt this way about anyone before. Him and I are going to be an unstoppable couple. At one point, Jed had said that if we were ever together that would be us. I disagree, I think that everything in life is meant to be a certain way. Not ALL of our decisions are pre-determined, but some of them are just there and happiness IS guaranteed with them.
Sigh. This is a long ass post. I just woke up and felt like I needed to write.
God bless AMERICA.
<3 Ro
Cat Power - Paths of Victory
Work today was okay. I was dreading it because we had freezing rain all last night and I knew that most of our appointments and surgeries were not going to show up today and that we'd have a cranky doctor and a lot of time to find useless meaningless things to do. He made me do inventory. LUCKILY - Rob stopped in because they were just up the road at Hollywood Video and he stayed with me for three hours and helped me do inventory. How sweet is my man? :) He counted so many pills, I thank him so much.
I have been realizing lately how lucky I am to have him. I know that things are shitty at times, and I know that sometimes I will find myself regretting things I do EVEN IF my motto is not to regret. I have to focus on the present and the future, not the past. Remember, that is things that cannot be changed no matter how hard we try to think we can. Let's just stick to ENJOYING the present.
My mum has mentioned Rob and I moving to Rock Valley, IA or Hull, IA and renting a house or even buying a house. There's a place that is looking for a graphic designer and my aunt knows the owner very well. And she says that Rob could work at a place where they laser cut pieces of metal. The whole idea sounds so appealing to me, no matter how much I hate small towns and how much I don't want to live there. It would be great to get everything stable.
The Strokes - When It Started
My dream really was to move to Minneapolis or some city like that sometime soon. Somewhere that would have lots of concerts and a CULTURE and things to do that don't have to do with agriculture. And where they may have gay people and black people and other Latinos and maybe museums! That's what I want. I want to go back to NY. SIGH.
Andrew Bird - Weather Systems
Whatever. We don't always get what we want, but you will find that you always get what you need. Or something like that?
<3 Ro
What are you thankful for?
The last year was full of regret, but also of a lot of things that helped me realize what I needed to be happy. I am thankful that I have the courage to SEEK happiness even if it took an unhappy situation to make it so. I'm happy that I finally found medicines that are making me feel alright. I am thankful that Rob is here and that we're doing great. I am thankful for everything he has brought to me. Love and confidence.
I am thankful that my family can be together on this day. I am thankful that we have a roof over our heads and that all my pets are safe and healthy.
I am thankful for everything life has brought me, good and bad. It's all a learning experience.
And I'm thankful for Cesar Millan's words "Calm assertive energy." Those words are getting me through problems very easily.
-Ro
Show us the first thing you see in the morning.
Submitted by The Gaping MAW.
Taking pictures of people when they are sleeping is just NOT polite. So this will have to do for now. Everyday I open my eyes and see my Robert :)
This is pre-beard Rob, but you get the general gist of it. I don't really look the best, but waht the hell ;)
I looked at Robbie's AIM that he has logged into his computer at home. It's been idle for 21 days. So he's been with me for three weeks?
It feels like we've already built a groove, a pattern, a life. We lay in bed in each other's arms. We go out to dinner and I look at him and I can't believe that he's mine. He looks so handsome and just goddamn gorgeous in his Alpine Stars leather jacket and hat, and he's all scruffy. And when I see girls staring at him, I don't get jealous, I feel happy. I feel smug. Like, look what I have. He's all mine and he loves me and I love him. And I feel like this is right. I feel like we're perfect and like we will be together forever. I know that I don't usually say stuff like this. I don't usually feel so confident in a relationship. And I specially do not make comments like that after living with someone for three weeks, but let me assure you, I've thought of many many reasons of why he should not be with me, and why we would not work out, and all those seem to have fallen in place or melted away since we've been together.
I can't imagine being without him anymore.
He's great with the dogs and he's hilarious. He makes me laugh and he makes me happy. He cheers me up, and he protects me. He keeps me safe and he is always there when I need him. He can almost read my mind, it's ridiculous. Okay, I'm getting gushy and sappy.
I can imagine myself marrying him, having kids, and growing old with him.
<3 Ro
Does that make sense at all? I sit sometimes at night whether it's with Rob or by myself, and I feel like I'm in a trance. I watch something off in the difference, the carpet, the dog, or even the television without actually SEEING the television/dog whatever. And it makes me feel like I'm out of my body, like I'm not even feeling or seeing everything or anything around me. I watch my friends hang out and kid around with each other and before I know it I'm in a deep depression that I can't stop. I feel it coming on and I know that it's there to stay for the rest of the night. I never know what it is that causes it and I never know what it is that brings it on. Everyone else is having a blast, and I'm sitting here drowning in my own misery. Gah.
How do I snap myself out of it? Usually it's through self injury, as awful as that sounds. A pain that is real and tangible, I can place. I can deal with and I can work with it. A pain that is emotional and surreal, I don't know where to even begin to figure out. My heart hurts, my chest tightens, and I feel like I'm being suffocated. No one understands this. No one knows that I'm not trying to hurt myself, I'm only trying to free my emotions and feelings. I know that anyone who reads that and doesn't know what is going on, just thinks that I'm more crazy that I have been. But in reality, I feel saner after doing it.
Do I want to stop doing it? Yes. I want to stop hurting myself physically and emotionally. I want to feel happy and I want to be able to control my emotions without the need for physical pain. How do I get to the point? A-ha... that's the tricky part. I don't know. I'm seeking help, I'm going to therapy, I have psychiatrists appointments and I am on drugs. A number of drugs that I feel DO NOT HELP AT ALL. In the meantime, I try to keep the injuries superficial and easy to heal. The pain that I feel everytime someone accidentally touches them, reminds me of why I need to stop. Because in the end, it's not helpful, it's hurtful.
-R
1. Robert
2. My pets, all of them, even the squawky and annoying ones
3. Maky - my brother
4. Good Indie music
5. My iPod to listen to the good Indie music
6. My computer and all the good Indie music on it
7. My job and the understanding boss
8. Understanding family members - they make up for the not so understanding ones
9. The ability for Robert and I to have completely different opinions on things that are very much important, and being able to STOP TALKING about things when we realize that we're going to have a misunderstanding or row about it. Guns, religion, hunting, etc.
10. The moments right before I fall asleep and I'm in Rob's arms and I look up and see him.
11. Actually being able to fall asleep in Rob's arms, where I couldn't do that with anyone else ever. And being able to cuddle with him.
12. A good healthy sex life for once in my life.
13. Drugs that seem to be doing the trick.
14. Good health and dental insurance.
15. and TiVo. WEEEEE!!!!
Here's the song for today:
