4 posts tagged “love”
It seems weird that every year around this time, an unusual amount of people from my past seem to pop out of nowhere. Hmm. I got text messages from Joseph, who of course was drunk while he was texting me. He seems to think that I'm "something that should have been done six years ago." I pointed out the fact that he only texts me when he's drunk and that he only talks to me that way. I pointed out how rude and disrespectful it is to talk to me, he called me self righteous and said that I was being rude to HIM. I told him that he didn't care about me, and had just been wanting ass now. It pisses me off because him and I had a wonderful friendship. We were best friends in the year 2000 and I was so in love with him for a long time. He had his opportunity and things didn't work out, so I figure that's that. He's also much older than me, I'm 24 and he is now 33. I don't think we were ever on the same plane, but if we were, we completely missed our chances and thats the end of that. I told him not to contact me anymore and that was both something I needed to say and something very painful to say.
The other person that just randomly popped out was Jed. I had said my final goodbyes to my emotions about him, and I certainly don't feel that way for him anymore. I did when I was in an unsatisfactory relationship, but now I just want his friendship again. He was a great friend and one day he told me that because of his wife, he was going to basically cut me out of his life. We hadn't talked for months and months. Then out of nowhere I get an email from him saying that he wasn't sure where we stood and whether it was okay to talk to me or not. I said of course it is, I would still like to be your friend. I miss him, that's for sure, but it's nowhere near the same thing anymore. And what's so annoying about THAT friendship is that he seems to seek me out the most when him and his wife are having problems. Almost like I'm being the backup girl. Like, hey if things don't work out between me and her, Rocio is always there. Sigh. I doubt thats really the nature of our friendship, but for a long time that's how I felt.
I'm very happy and very satisfied with my relationship with Rob. We get along so well and we like each other. I have never had a boy that I actually want to spend a lot of time with, that I want to cuddle with, and just enjoy his company. We compliment each other very wonderfully. I love him to death. And I can't imagine what life would be like without him. I have honestly never felt this way about anyone before. Him and I are going to be an unstoppable couple. At one point, Jed had said that if we were ever together that would be us. I disagree, I think that everything in life is meant to be a certain way. Not ALL of our decisions are pre-determined, but some of them are just there and happiness IS guaranteed with them.
Sigh. This is a long ass post. I just woke up and felt like I needed to write.
God bless AMERICA.
<3 Ro
What are the things in life that you're truly passionate about?
Submitted by Jess.
Animal rights - they don't have to be treated like humans. We all know that they are inferior to us, but they still need to be treated with the rights they deserve. After all, if a cow is sacrificing their life to feed you, can't you at least treat it like something that is blessed and wonderful? It's doing something for YOU. Do something for them.
Gay rights - I have many gay and lesbian friends and it pisses me off to hear that they don't deserve the same rights as us. We have the right to fuck up our lives in any way that we want. Why can't they? They deserve civil unions/marriages/health insurance/anything else. They are people too. And if you're a Godly person, remember this: God did not create ANYTHING less than perfect. So respect and love.
Stopping the ignorance of the midwest from infecting future generations.
Art, and my inability to focus on a single painting. Just because I haven't painted something in years, doesn't mean that it's any less important to me than it used to be.
Love. Love is going to lead you by the hand. There is love for everyone on this planet. Romantic love and brotherly love. In the words of John Lennon, the love you take is equal to the love you make. And ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE.
There are three medicines that I put my faith in: Amoxicillin, Benadryl, and Neosporin. Keep those on hand and I'm sure you can survive anything.
Laughter. Without laughter, comedy, and humour, you've got nothing. You've got a boring and meaningless life.
<3 R
I looked at Robbie's AIM that he has logged into his computer at home. It's been idle for 21 days. So he's been with me for three weeks?
It feels like we've already built a groove, a pattern, a life. We lay in bed in each other's arms. We go out to dinner and I look at him and I can't believe that he's mine. He looks so handsome and just goddamn gorgeous in his Alpine Stars leather jacket and hat, and he's all scruffy. And when I see girls staring at him, I don't get jealous, I feel happy. I feel smug. Like, look what I have. He's all mine and he loves me and I love him. And I feel like this is right. I feel like we're perfect and like we will be together forever. I know that I don't usually say stuff like this. I don't usually feel so confident in a relationship. And I specially do not make comments like that after living with someone for three weeks, but let me assure you, I've thought of many many reasons of why he should not be with me, and why we would not work out, and all those seem to have fallen in place or melted away since we've been together.
I can't imagine being without him anymore.
He's great with the dogs and he's hilarious. He makes me laugh and he makes me happy. He cheers me up, and he protects me. He keeps me safe and he is always there when I need him. He can almost read my mind, it's ridiculous. Okay, I'm getting gushy and sappy.
I can imagine myself marrying him, having kids, and growing old with him.
<3 Ro
I wonder why I am listening to "Love Love Love" by the Mountain Goats everytime that I'm updating this blog. Hmm...
I don't know why I'm updating except to say that I was in a funky mood and that I felt like crap. And I wanted to die.
And after talking to Rob for awhile, I realized that I didn't need to die, I just needed to have a panic attack and then relax. Thank you, Robert. *clap hands* and maybe *say yeah*
I don't want to go to work tomorrow because Janelle is off and that leaves me and Amy alone with fucktard and that means that we will make fun of her and want to kill her, and I try not to, but sometimes she makes me want to drive her head through the wall.
ON ANOTHER NOTE - I am not bringing Rob to my parents or to the clinic. So NYAH.
<3 R
