the effect unemployment has already had on me

it's only been a week, a little less than a week, actually... and I'm already noticing that my whole schedule and everything is all fucked up.

i am awake, it's 5 am. my husband is dead asleep, he works early.  and i should be sleeping and waking up at the same time as him.  today... well, yesterday, i cleaned. and i'm afraid that watching dr. phil and oprah has turned into a daily habit.

remind me to buy sleeping pills this weekend. i need to keep my schedule as close to normal as possible.  i can't sleep.

i have watched two hbo documentaries tonight. one about four people who were recovering from brain injuries and their recovery after waking from a coma.  it was really fucking sad.  i told rob that i never ever want to be in that position and to put me straight out of my misery.  and the other one i watched was about a 65 year old couple who had been deaf their whole lives and then decided to get a cochlear implant to hear.  and the mom was having a rough time because she wasn't hearing what she thought she should be, since the husband was making such good progress.

apparently this is the guy who invented the tty and relay system for deaf people to use the telephone.

okay... i gotta go take benadryl and try this again.

night night.

well good morning anyway