back again...
After my very long hiatus, I have deleted my myspace and facebook and have decided to just blog here. I know that no one reads it, and I think that's what I prefer. The only person that I care to keep updated is Ant and everyone else can go suck a fuck.
I'm in the worst mood I've been in a long time. Both down/depressed and angry. I wish that when someone called me a bitch when I didn't deserve it, my husband would step in and defend me... but he doesn't. That hurt more than my brother calling me a bitch.
It ruined the otherwise good day of going to the theatre and watching Iron Man. It was a good movie.
When I got home, I wanted to leave and go to my parent's house (that's the only place in the world that I have left, everyone else fucking hates me... and I think I'm starting to be okay with that). But of course, when I go to leave, I can't find my keys or the spare, so I'm here. I'm calmed down a lot though.
Yesterday, I got let go from my job. Apparently my boss' and my personality clash, and he's taking his work home with him... apparently that's my fault. He said that it could be the worst decision he's made, and that he would probably hire me back, and he's like "You might be back for your third time." I wanted to tell him to fuck off... my feelings were so hurt, and I honestly looked up to him like a father and when he lets me go because of my personality (and he said that I haven't been an asshole... and that I work hard, and that he's enjoyed having me there WTF!)... it makes me feel like my dad just told me that I'm useless.
We're pretty sure that I have been fired because his wife told him to let me go... he has no balls, and does whatever she tells him to. I feel absolutely lost.
Next week I'm putting in my resume at another vet clinic that apparently has a position open. The vet there is an amazing vet, but doesn't have much of an easygoing personality... and he's a workaholic, so the clinic is open for 12 hours a day, and you work there six days a week.
Ugh. I'm going to take a shit ton of sleeping pills and sleep until next wednesday.
<3 R
