* getting stoned
* talking to that person that you've had a crush on for more than 8 years and flirting needlessly
* wearing high heels and fish net stockings just to tease the boy
* riding on a motorcycle without safety gear
* making the cats get high on catnip and fight each other viciously
* blowing pot smoke in your dog's face
* eating cheesecake all by yourself
-R
it's only been a week, a little less than a week, actually... and I'm already noticing that my whole schedule and everything is all fucked up.
i am awake, it's 5 am. my husband is dead asleep, he works early. and i should be sleeping and waking up at the same time as him. today... well, yesterday, i cleaned. and i'm afraid that watching dr. phil and oprah has turned into a daily habit.
remind me to buy sleeping pills this weekend. i need to keep my schedule as close to normal as possible. i can't sleep.
i have watched two hbo documentaries tonight. one about four people who were recovering from brain injuries and their recovery after waking from a coma. it was really fucking sad. i told rob that i never ever want to be in that position and to put me straight out of my misery. and the other one i watched was about a 65 year old couple who had been deaf their whole lives and then decided to get a cochlear implant to hear. and the mom was having a rough time because she wasn't hearing what she thought she should be, since the husband was making such good progress.
apparently this is the guy who invented the tty and relay system for deaf people to use the telephone.
okay... i gotta go take benadryl and try this again.
night night.
well good morning anyway
do you hurt anywhere right now?
my brain hurts to think
what's the most adorable thing you've ever seen?
lola all cuddled on my pillows
do you have any tattoos?
yep, i have three
are you double jointed?
nope
how fast can you type?
my typing skills are not what they used to be
do you like your handwriting?
yes
describe in detail what you're wearing.
blue jeans, pink long sleeve no hunting tshirt and rainbow airwalks
what is your favorite sound?
music, and the sound of my little dove cooing
is there anything you aren't looking forward to?
getting another job
what type of computer are you on?
a homemade one at my house
is your room clean?
it's messy
who takes your breath away?
my husband in his work clothes, hot...
which emotion is dominating right now?
boredom
so how do you feel about clay aiken?
he's not so bad, it's his accent that gets to me
who are you talking to?
no one
if you could relive any moment of your life, what would it be?
september 21st? or the 22nd.
what is your most treasured possesion?
probably my wedding rings
what is your favorite item of clothing?
shoes
do you have any special piercings?
nope
what is the compliment you get most?
that i'm funny
what's the reasoning behind your myspce url?
i am mrs melehan
what are you looking forward to?
getting another job
do you write on your hands/arms?
sometimes i draw on them with sharpies... sharpie tattoos rock
what do you think about american idol?
I don't watch it
how about hell's kitchen?
never seen it
what are the top three most visited sites on your compute?
muxtape, myspace, and gmail
what is your favorite video game?
The Sims 2
saving your money up for anything?
we're barely scraping by
what's your major malfunction?
my brain
can you sing?
i like to, but don't do it WELL
how about dance?
whenever very drunk I think that i'm great at it
do you miss anything?
yes
are you creeped out about anything right now?
whenever the dogs bark at random things and i think "ohmygod there's someone out there"
why aren't you doing anything more productive?
because i'm alone and bored
what are you craving right now?
macaronis but i gotta wait for robbie
would you ever try out for american idol?
nope
are you having a hard time breathing?
i'm stuffed up and i have asthma... so yes
so, what's happening tomorrow?
same as today
what's going through your mind right now?
i wish i was working
what's the closest red object near you?
my target cup
what time is it?
618 pm
why aren't you in school?
i don't know... why aren't I!?
how late do you sleep on weekends?
I usually wake up at 830 at the latest
if you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would it be?
Florida is okay
band:
Currently... I'm From Barcelona, and Of Montreal
color:
pink
song:
"painter" i'm from barcelona
day:
friday night
holiday:
christmas
friend:
meaghan
tv show:
The Office
time of day:
whenever rob gets home from work
place to be:
in bed with rob
pair of shoes:
airwalks and heels
article of clothing
shoes
weather:
i want warm NOT HOT weather
candy:
any, i love candy
food:
italian and chinese
drink:
coca cola, i drink too much of it
so I haven't slept in my bed since like Friday. I've been camping out in the livingroom. Depression is winning since I haven't left the sofa-bed and haven't left the house since Saturday. And I've been in foul moods. Ugh.
I don't know what I want to do, I want to go back to school. Even though Rob makes more money than I did, I don't think we can live on just his salary. Perhaps I can talk my parents into helping me out while I do it.
Anyway... I promise to myself to put in a resume at least at two places tomorrow AND go to target.
that's asking alot
Have you cried today?:
*no
What's your favorite type of soda?:
* Coke is the champion's drink
Where are most of your clothes from?:
* Probably Old Navy
What is usually the first thing you do when you wake up in the morning?:
* Let the dogs out to go potty or go potty myself
What is usually the last thing you do before you go to bed at night?:
* Rub Robbie's back
How many people do you hate, if any?:
* A few... but that emotion isn't really worth my time anymore
* Oregon
Do you honestly care about what other people think about you?:
* Only my family
Do people ever spell your name wrong?
* Yes, and pronounce it wrong... I thought it would be different when I got married but they still misspell it all the time
Do people ever think you're older/younger than you actually are?:
* Younger, what with the pink hair and all
* I like Herr's Salt and Vinegar chips
Do you think that jeans or sweatpants are more comfortable?:
* PJ pants
How often do you talk on the phone?:
* I hate talking on the phone
Do you have a secret that no one knows except for you?:
* A few
Would you take someone back who cheated on you?
* Maybe
Have you ever flashed anybody?:
* Yes
Have you ever mooned anybody?:
* Yes
When is the last time you exercised?:
* So so so long ago
What is your least favorite season?:
* Winter
What's the latest you've ever woken up?:
* middle of the afternoon
What's the latest you've ever gone to bed?:
* There are many times when I haven't gone to sleep
What do you usually eat for breakfast?:
* Cereal, yogurt, berries.
Do you usually eat three meals a day?:
* Sometimes
Do you dream often?:
* Most nights
Do you have a lot of regrets?:
* A few
Are you easygoing?:
* Depends on the topic
When do you think is the next time you'll get wasted?:
* This weekend
If you had to give up TV or the internet, which would you give up?:
* Internet
Do you stereotype people?:
* Oh yeah
* Depends on the day, when Rob is goofy I laugh all day
Do you prefer to smile or laugh?:
* both!
What's your favorite dessert?:
*cheesecake
Are you good with directions?:
* Sort of
Who knows you better, your friends or your family?:
What do you like to put on your ice cream?:
* Sprinkles
Name one word to describe you:
* Crazy
Name one word to describe your dad:
* Smart
Name one word to describe your best friend(s):
* Awesome
How much make-up do you usually wear?:
* None lately
Rate your personality on a scale of 1-10:
* I thought an 8
What is the last thing you made fun of?:
* Why would you make fun of radiohead? I believe it was Rye bread and meatwad skatting
What is your favortie board game?:
* Clue and Life
Do you like to sing?:
* yes
Do you believe in love?:
* yes
Liars, cheaters, or backstabbers: Which is worse?:
* Backstabbers
Do you lie often?:
* yeah
Do you chew on your pens?:
* no
Do you like coffee?:
* it's delicious
What's your favorite thing about school?:
* Uh... buying new school supplies?
Do you use a highlighter when you do word searches?:
* Nope
Would you rather spend a day with your mom or your dad?:
* Either
Do you believe in aliens?:
* Life on other planets, sure
Are you obsessed with any celebrities or their lives?:
* No
What are you addicted to?:
* Candy and television.
What is your favorite color?:
*Pink
Have you ever been awake for 24 hours?:
* Yes
Do you have a crush on anybody right now?:
* yes
When's the last time you went to the beach?:
* Many years
If you could speak any language other than English, what would it be?:
* German, everyone around me seems to speak it
Do you have a curfew?
* Nope, I live at my own house with my own husband!
Choose one: Wawa or Seven Eleven:
* We have neither
Do name brands really matter to you?:
* Depends on what it is
Do you use iTunes?:
*yes
What's the last thing that annoyed you?:
* getting fired
Are you flexible?:
* No
Would you ever join the army?:
*no
Can you make a four leaf clover with your tongue?:
* who in the world can?
If you could travel into space, would you?:
* yeah!
When's the last time you failed a test?:
* many moons ago
Do you shower in the morning or at night?:
* morning
Is there a calculator in your house?:
* yes
Do you wear slippers?:
*sometimes
What is/was your favorite Disney movie?:
* Alice in Wonderland and Little Mermaid
When is the last time you vacuumed?:
* Today
What room is the computer in at your house?:
* Livingroom
Are you a fast typer?:
* very
What subject are you best at in school?:
* Arts
Can you cook well?:
* The few things that I know how to make, yes
What room do you spend the most time in at your house?:
* Livingroom
What are you going to be doing five hours from now, most likely?:
* Sleeping
Do you go tanning?:
*Nope
Who was the last person you talked to in person?:
* Robert
What's one thing you really want right now?:
* Drugs
When do you put up your Christmas tree?:
* First weekend of Dec
* My husband gets the little joy of getting my bills
Have you ever paid for anything completely in change?:
* GAS! LAST WEEK!
Do you think what goes around comes back around?:
* yes
After my very long hiatus, I have deleted my myspace and facebook and have decided to just blog here. I know that no one reads it, and I think that's what I prefer. The only person that I care to keep updated is Ant and everyone else can go suck a fuck.
I'm in the worst mood I've been in a long time. Both down/depressed and angry. I wish that when someone called me a bitch when I didn't deserve it, my husband would step in and defend me... but he doesn't. That hurt more than my brother calling me a bitch.
It ruined the otherwise good day of going to the theatre and watching Iron Man. It was a good movie.
When I got home, I wanted to leave and go to my parent's house (that's the only place in the world that I have left, everyone else fucking hates me... and I think I'm starting to be okay with that). But of course, when I go to leave, I can't find my keys or the spare, so I'm here. I'm calmed down a lot though.
Yesterday, I got let go from my job. Apparently my boss' and my personality clash, and he's taking his work home with him... apparently that's my fault. He said that it could be the worst decision he's made, and that he would probably hire me back, and he's like "You might be back for your third time." I wanted to tell him to fuck off... my feelings were so hurt, and I honestly looked up to him like a father and when he lets me go because of my personality (and he said that I haven't been an asshole... and that I work hard, and that he's enjoyed having me there WTF!)... it makes me feel like my dad just told me that I'm useless.
We're pretty sure that I have been fired because his wife told him to let me go... he has no balls, and does whatever she tells him to. I feel absolutely lost.
Next week I'm putting in my resume at another vet clinic that apparently has a position open. The vet there is an amazing vet, but doesn't have much of an easygoing personality... and he's a workaholic, so the clinic is open for 12 hours a day, and you work there six days a week.
Ugh. I'm going to take a shit ton of sleeping pills and sleep until next wednesday.
<3 R
1. Where did you begin 2007?
At my house with Mini, Pat, Rob, and Juan. Eating pot brownies, drinking, and I think that Rob and I fell asleep before midnight... we were wasted. Oh, and that was the birth of the "more ball" joke.
2. What was your status by Valentines Day?
Newlywed by 8 days.
3. Were you in school anytime this year?
Nope
4. Did you have to go to the hospital?
Not in 2007 wooooo
5. Did you have any encounters with the police?
Yes... let's not talk about that.
6. Where did you go on vacation?
Florida!! Chicago!!
7. What did you purchase that was over $500?
a motorcycle?
8. Did you know anybody who got married?
Myself
9. Did you know anybody who passed away?
Uh... not sure
10.Did you move anywhere?
Nope
11. What sporting events did you attend?
A Twins vs Tigers game in MSP
12. What concerts/shows did you go to?
Pitchfork Festival!! Of Montreal!!!
On the way to Pitchfork Festival in Chicago!
14. What is the one thing you thought you would not do, but did, in 2007?
Got married. Cross country road tripped.
15. What has been your favorite moments?
Lots of adderall artistic nights, etc
16. Any new additions to your family?
Teal'C the Bengal kitty
17. What was your best month?
Uh... not sure, actually
18. Who has been your best drinking buddy?
Pat because he's a drunkard
19. Made new friends?
Nathan my brother in law, Megan again, Emmett
20. Favorite Night out?
Any night that we're tweaking and drawing
21. Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
All Animal Pet Hospital
22. Be honest - did you watch American Idol?
I don't watch that terrible show
23. Change your hairstyle?
Yep, it's longish and half pink
24. Have any car accidents?
Oh thank god, no... but we had plenty of motorcycle incidents
25. How old did you turn this year?
25
26. Do you have a New Years resolution?
Just to try harder to be a nicer person
27. Do anything embarrassing?
ALWAYS, falling off the retaining wall while walking home from Frying Pan
28. Buy anything new from eBay?
Motorcycle things and jewelry and such
29. Get married or divorced?
Married
30. Get arrested?
Yes
31. Been snowboarding?
No
32. Did you get sick this year?
A few
33. Are you happy to see 2007 G0?
Every year must pass
34. Been naughty or nice?
Probably naughty
It's dedication time. What song are you sending out, and who is it dedicated to?
To Nathan and everyone else who loves Andrew Bird duh.
rob sat on my hand and broke my thumb
the angle that its in is disgusting
i'm going back to work on thursday back to the clinic
i'm going to pitchfork festival over my birthday yayyyy of montreal
i want a new iphone
i had rob take pics of the gross thumb but haven't gotten them off his camera
While I sit here at 330 AM and wait for my Benadryl to kick in so that I can stop thinking about the stupid whore bitch who betrayed my friendship many moons ago, I realized that I have a fucking German Jew hook nose.
Thanks, Grandma!
Also - I sweat a lot and it's noticeable in that picture of us at Disney World with our little Bride & Groom Mickey Ears, but whatever.
Why am I so bitter? Like, seriously, that bitch can't hold a candle to me, and there's such a thing as KARMA.
I believe in it, so why am I so obsessed with it? Karma can kick some serious ass, but I don't take her seriously.
UGH.
With a side of UGH.
GOOD NIGHT RO
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